He thought he didn’t look gay, didn’t act gay, then forced himself to consider what sort of prejudices made up that line of thinking. Evan watched a lot of Queer as Folk and studied those characters in a way he thought other people his age probably didn’t. Not all of the characters on that show looked gay. Some of them did. Some of them acted gay too, but not all of them. Some of the gay men looked and acted like straight men.
Evan thought he was probably one of those gay men. The ones who didn’t look gay on the outside. Even if what he felt, underneath it all, was pretty fucking gay.