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Saving Sebastian

Saving Sebastian - Luna David

“You don’t have to prove yourself worthy of me. You are worthy of me, just as I’m worthy of you."



For me this was not simply about the acts of a BDSM relationship but was the complete development of a true D/s relationship and one that was done so with such depth, attention and patience.  The character development, including their doubts, hesitancy and questions revolving around their worth to their partner was beautifully captured.


While I have read several BDSM books, I have not always been comfortable reading about these types of relationships.  Perhaps it has been more about the acts before, or what I feel can be overly aggressive Dominates and quite weak submissives.  And that is awful to say and certainly is not meant in any way as demeaning but it was just not always something I understood.  There have been a few books however that explain better the power that the submissive holds…that they ultimately hold all the power with one simple word.  And out of all the books I have read involving BDSM, it is this one that I feel has captured the true nature of these relationships best.


This is not a quick read.  This is not a read in which involves only the acts, as the majority of the book is not about scenes but about the interactions, the trust building, and the dynamics and ultimate ability to know your partner, their needs and their desires. 


I also honestly never before got the level of worshipping that a Dom can have toward their sub.  But this aspect made all the difference for me.  Gideon, while Dominate, is so enthralled by His Boy, so utterly devoted to him, that it was seeing his sheer love expressed in a look, in a gesture or in his thoughts and actions that made me all the more captivated by him.  And it was these moments which made their dynamic stronger for me as partners.


“You keep getting on your knees for me.” He sighed and glanced back down at the box. “It feels wrong.”

“Why? Because you’re convinced that as my sub you should always be below me?”

Sebastian shrugged. “Yeah. I mean, I’m serving you, not the other way around.”

“You don’t think I do the same for you?”

 Sebastian tilted his head in confusion and shook his head. “You should never serve me.”

Gideon chuckled at that and said, “Of course I should. We’re serving each other. We just do it in different ways. You’re offering your service to me as my submissive. But I’m also offering my service to you as your Dominant. We’re equals in this, Sebastian.”

“You really believe that?”

“Fuck yes! I absolutely do. I can do nothing with you, to you, unless you have given your express permission. That power is in your hands. You know this.”

Sebastian nodded. “Yeah. I mean, I guess. I just never thought of it that way. That doesn’t seem right.”

“I’m giving you what you need, just as you are doing for me. If that isn’t service, I don’t know what is.”


While this book is long, it is not without reason.  Every scene in some way has a point, shows the true character of our main MCs and therefore nothing ever seemed pointless.  Even the scene with Boone and Connell had value and was so damn perfect at capturing the nurturing aspect of Gideon.    




The rope scenes for me were so intricate in their descriptions that I longed to have the imagery from Khaleo’s camera…not only in scene but in aftercare as well.  The images of the marks and indentions left in the skin, just beautiful crafted.


“Look at the lines on your body caused by the ropes. They’re beautiful. You’re beautiful."


Luna David, I have to say, not only impressed me with her in depth exploration into BDSM but into the health conditions that our sweet Sebastian lives with.  I felt this part of the story to be well researched and thoughtful.  While I am not a physician, it all felt quite accurate and ultimately personal. 



The story telling aspect of this also worked well for me.  While much of the story is a back and forth POV, there are several key scenes which are told from both POV and it was those that became the most touching of the story.  The New Year’s Eve scene being the most heartbreaking of them all.  I also enjoyed that while at times, it seemed certain scenes were skipped, we later got these told in memories, which I loved.  I am not sure this book would have worked had only one POV been described.  This was a couple and therefore their thoughts, actions and love for the other were of utmost importance in making this successful.


Now, I did not read the first 2 books in this series…honestly after hearing the praises surrounding this book and in seeing the cover, there was just no way I could wait.  And while a standalone, part of me does wish I had read the others first.  I was a little confused during the first hospital scene, feeling as though I walked into a family dinner not knowing who was there or what their relationships entailed.  I also feel like I may have gotten some inkling into what Sebastian looked like, having perhaps gotten other's perspectives on this man in previous books.  So again, while it really didn’t matter as this couple goes, it kinda mattered to me.  I will go back and read the others if for no other reason than to see sweet Braden’s story.  He was such a loving spirit and friend and I need more of him.


I do hope we eventually get Killian’s story.  He popped on page only briefly but there is no doubt a story behind this intriguing man.  And while I am no longer a big reader of M/F, I would read Finn and Zoe’s story.  How this doctor came to embrace this lifestyle to be what he needed for the woman he loves. I am on board.


There are so many aspects of this story that I have failed to even acknowledge, from their backgrounds, to their families, to the tattoos and Sebastian's love of art, and pets, every aspect was so beautifully and amazingly crafted.  I guess I will just have to reread this at some point and expand on those elements as well.  Until then, I cannot recommend this journey enough.



Spoilerish Bonus Quote…read at own risk…but it is absolutely beautiful.


Gideon leaned down and kissed his head, over and over, everywhere he could reach, paying particular attention to the raised, bumpy edges of his scar. His boy’s sobs were wracking his whole body at that point and Gideon’s heart was breaking.

“You’re so good, baby. So strong. Let it out. I’m so fucking proud of you. So proud. You’re the bravest man I know.”

Gideon touched and stroked Sebastian’s face, his head, his shoulders, and his neck, telling him how beautiful he was, how he’d never been more attracted to anyone in his life, how proud he was to be with him, and finally how lucky he knew he was that Sebastian had chosen him.



Even better the second time around. ❤️❤️❤️

Reading progress update: I've read 53%.

Saving Sebastian - Luna David

“Look, I don’t know what’s going on with you. But from what I could see through the window, that wasn’t you. That’s not the older brother I’ve looked up to all my life. You crushed that boy. God, the love he had for you.” He shook his head again. “Every time your name was mentioned his face would light up. If you didn’t see it, you were blind, brother.”


Remember Me When

Remember Me When - Brooke Blaine

I really loved these two characters as well as the storyline developed here. For me this however felt a little flat in the character development and overall seemed rushed to conclusion. I am also not sure I fully understand the need to split this one book in half. Even for the 2-3 weeks separation between parts, it pulled me away from the characters and their story. And maybe that was in fact the point, as we were dealing with amnesia.


Overall a very sweet story with great leading men. Just wished we had gotten a little more depth into them as a couple as they grew back together.

Silent Strength

Silent Strength: M/m Age Play Romance - Michael Innes

“You make me see everything differently…even myself…”

Holding him close, I smiled. “I just made you see the strength that was already there to begin with.”

He’d just needed someone to point it out. Someone to love him unconditionally and to show him that needs and emotions weren’t something that had to be hidden. No matter what the form or who you loved.


So this is a Daddy/little Age Play Kink.  Not something I had ever really heard about much less read.  This takes an open mind for sure but I am intrigued and will certainly continue with the series.


I do wish the story held a little more character and relationship development and depth.  I felt they moved really quickly and while the kink part develops nicely their couple development happens almost instantly.





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Ever After

Ever After - Christina Lee, Riley Hart

Overall this was quite lovely and I adored both Merrick and Cas. Their relationship developed quite beautifully and the scene at the Inn was easily my favorite. Such touching and sweet moments.


The addition of cars threw me for a loop though. I get I propably wasn't to take anything to literally as this was a fairy tale in the true sense but these cars felt sooo out of place in the world created here. Plus who doesn't love a good carriage ride.


This for me had zero angst which I appreciated considering I saw some comments that made this out to be an angst filled nightmare. For me this had some fantastic sexual tension with a HEA you knew was in the horizon.



Reading progress update: I've read 25%.

Between These Sheets - Devon McCormack

I’ve been dead for so long, and now I’m alive again.

Boystown - Season 8

BOYSTOWN Season Eight - Jake Biondi

Another season and another winner!!


I swear every time I pick up a new season, after waiting months and months, I have to first go back and at least read an episode or two of the previous season to get my head back into this setting, these characters and these wicked circumstances.  


Once again, we have a season filled with all the glory of the classic soap operas from the 80's and 90's.  This season was certainly no different and yet nothing ever feels repetitive.


From engagements, to divorces, to cheating, to murder and backstabbing, to wicked behavior and intrigue.  We even got our first threesome scene...and boy was that hot as hell.  Phew.  


Every season brings forth new characters and honestly at this point I really need to be keeping a cheat sheet going to keep my head wrapped around everyone. And par for the course, the number of cliffhangers is high, much like our "who shot JR" classic antics...they are glorious to see unfold.  Still amazed that Chicago has this number of ambulances on standby. LMAO.


Another great and entertaining BR with Marco...we look forward to these at each and every release.  When we do finally see an end in sight, I see a full on reread of the series prior to reading it's conclusion.  Can't wait for that full binge.


**Highly Recommended**

Hard To Let Go

Hard to Let Go: A Haven's Cove Novel - Jaclyn Quinn


Impressive. Honestly, if I had been handed this book and known nothing about this author (which I honestly know very little) I would never have guessed that this was her first book.  This was so fantastic.


A childhood bully/bullied, enemies to lovers story, this one had all the buildup I look for.  The kissing was scorching hot and honestly the entire relationship developed amazingly well.


While I started out feeling this had similarities to another recent book I have read, this steered quickly into new territory and the story grew quite beautifully.  Brody’s childhood and his relationship with his mother was just heartbreaking. But the love and devotion that transpired tapped into the feels something hard.  Phew.  I was a mess.


For the first time in Owen’s memory, the long table his grandfather built over 40 years ago, was filled with family-blood and chosen.


Family indeed.  This had such a strong sense of family. Of love.  Of commitment. And of support. These moments were simply beautiful.


I have heard more is to come from this author and eagerly await more on Jonah.  He was a quiet force but so compassionate and strong.  And Gabe…wow!  Look out.  I am so in love with this character.  His style, his wit and his love for Brody was written perfectly.  In addition, the banter with Leslie was just so well done and genuine.  Every scene felt real. 


I adored the aunts, the mothers and even sweet and confused Nate.  Cannot wait to see more from this guy as well.


Overall, I adored every moment of this book and cannot find one thing to complain about. LOL


** Highly Recommended**


An ARC was received from the Author in exchange for an honest review.

Reading progress update: I've read 1%.

BOYSTOWN Season Eight - Jake Biondi

Back to the smutty backstabbing cheating goodness. 



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Forget Me Not

Forget Me Not (The Unforgettable Duet Book 1) - Brooke Blaine

*Review to come when other half of book is released.*

Reading progress update: I've read 100%.

The Raven King - Nora Sakavic

He was their family. They were his. They were worth every cut and bruise and scream.


Reading progress update: I've read 92%.

The Raven King - Nora Sakavic

Facing Riko like this went against everything his mother taught him. He'd been raised to run, to sacrifice everything and everyone to ensure his own survival. His mother had never given him ground to stand on. Maybe that was why he hadn't been strong enough to save her in the end. A jumble of lies had nothing to fight for. But Neil Josten was a Fox. Andrew called this home; Nicky called him family. Neil wasn't going to lose any of it. If two weeks with Riko was the price to keep his team safe, Neil would pay it.

Reading progress update: I've read 43%.

The Raven King - Nora Sakavic

He'd divided his secrets between Kevin and Andrew. Kevin reacted the way Neil expected everyone would to the truth: with a horrified demand that Neil leave immediately. Andrew, though, nodded in the face of it and told Neil to stay. He stood his ground when Neil asked him for murder and gave him a key to their house.



Reading progress update: I've read 30%.

The Raven King - Nora Sakavic

Sweet Jesus. I’m as stressed this time as I was the first time. 


The Foxhole Court

The Foxhole Court - Nora Sakavic

A third read and it gets better and better.  Loved finding new quotes, seeing new things and glimpses into the truth of these characters.  Andrew continues to draw me further and further in.  



A group of people shouldered their way up to the bar counter at Neil's back, pushing him into Andrew. Andrew didn't budge beneath his weight. He was something solid to lean against, something violent and fierce and unmoving. Neil couldn't remember what it felt like to have someone hold him up. It was terrifying and liberating all at once. His life was out of his control now; he was giving it to Andrew and hoping Andrew would keep it safe. 


If ever there was a series that deserved a reread...it's this one. This series and these characters captured my heart earlier this year and needless to say I haven't been able to let them go. And the revisit is one word...breathtaking. 



Original Review:


"Family means something different with us because it has to. It's not about blood. It's not even about who we like. It's about who Andrew's willing to protect."

To say I'm stunned with this book is an understatement. There is really no way to even put into words what this book is about...while not much seems to happen...so much is unfolding and captivating you as a reader. I was not only intrigued from the very beginning but absolutely glued to the actions unfolding on the page...the writing is quite impressive.

While none of these characters are what I would call "mom material"...my gawd, you can't help but love every single one of these broken and quite dangerous men.

I'm also holding out on the Sevro comparison AT THIS POINT (sorry Marco) when talking about Andrew, as those are quite some shoes to fill...but potential...Oh Yes...there is no doubt that this psychotic crack head is brilliantly portrayed and mesmerizing to watch. I want his POV BAD!!

The cousins had pushed two of their dressers against the wall under the window. Andrew sat on top of them, leaning forward so he could fold his arms across his knees. Neil smelled blood and looked past Andrew at the window. Andrew had taken the screen off in the main room so he could smoke, but this window still had one. It was probably all that saved his hand when he punched a hole in the glass.


I can't help it...and with no romance yet, nor even real indication of who will get with who...I'm still turned on to the point that even a kiss could prove quite explosive. These guys are dangerously addictive and I'm under their drug induced spell for sure.

A group of people shouldered their way up to the bar counter at Neil's back, pushing him into Andrew. Andrew didn't budge beneath his weight. He was something solid to lean against, something violent and fierce and unmoving. Neil couldn't remember what it felt like to have someone hold him up. It was terrifying and liberating all at once. His life was out of his control now; he was giving it to Andrew and hoping Andrew would keep it safe.

Yep...total boner. I want more now!

As for recommendations...who knows who would enjoy this, but it's worth the try...it's FREE!

You hit the jackpot with this pick Marco...I hope the greatness continues.



Neil Josten let his cigarette burn to the filter without taking a drag. He didn't want the nicotine; he wanted the acrid smoke that reminded him of his mother. If he inhaled slowly enough, he could almost taste the ghost of gasoline and fire. It was at once revolting and comforting, and it sent a sick shudder down his spine. The jolt went all the way to his fingertips, dislodging a clump of ash. It fell to the bleachers between his shoes and was whisked away by the wind.
First paragraph and I am mesmerized already. :)


So intrigued by this.


"Don't you dare be more afraid of me than you are of Andrew."


It didn't matter what they offered or promised him. Neil wasn't like them. He was nothing and no one, and he always would be. Court wasn't for people like him. He'd take what he could learn and enjoy it while he could, but this was a dream he'd have to wake up from eventually. Wanting anything more than that would just make it harder to walk away.


Abby thought she was ready. Neil knew she wouldn't be, and he was right. Her mouth parted on a silent breath and her expression went blank. She wasn't fast enough to hide her flinch, and Neil saw her shoulders go rigid with tension. He stared at her face as she stared at him, watching her gaze sweep over the brutal marks of a hideous childhood.

Oh Neil.


Wymack tried explaining the ERC's logic, but he kept his attention on Andrew. It didn't take the team long to notice his distraction. The hubbub slowly died out. As it did, Andrew's smile returned. This time it was all teeth. Andrew's drugs made him manic, but they didn't make him any less vicious. Neil knew what that smile meant and braced for violence.


Andrew reached up and forcibly uncurled Neil's fingers from his mouth. He pushed Neil's hand out of the way and stared Neil down with nothing between them. Neil didn't understand the look on his face. There was no censure over Neil's crooked parents or pity for their deaths, no triumph over having backed Neil into admitting so much, and no obvious skepticism for such an outlandish story. Whatever this look was, it was dark and intense enough to swallow Neil whole.
Loving this book!


UGH!! I don't wanna work!


"Going on for Seth Gordon is freshman Neil Josten, number ten, of Millport, Arizona."
Neil wondered if casket lids sounded like court doors slamming shut.

What a statement!


Read#2, 2016 March


Yeah I can't let go of this. Reread with Teri. <3

Neil Josten let his cigarette burn to the filter without taking a drag. He didn't want the nicotine; he wanted the acrid smoke that reminded him of his mother. If he inhaled slowly enough, he could almost taste the ghost of gasoline and fire. It was at once revolting and comforting, and it sent a sick shudder down his spine. The jolt went all the way to his fingertips, dislodging a clump of ash. It fell to the bleachers between his shoes and was whisked away by the wind.


Between that sudden change in attitude, the disappearing pack of cigarettes, and the matching outfits, Neil was starting to second-guess what was going on here.


Keys meant Neil had explicit permission to be here and do what he liked. They meant he belonged.